Tentang Berbagi Essay

Salah satu proses yang sangat krusial dalam mendaftar beasiswa/mendaftar sekolah adalah menulis essay. Entah itu purpose statement/menjawab pertanyaan yang diberikan oleh si pemberi beasiswa. Sehingga enggak heran ada banyak pilihan pencarian ‘how to write  xxxx’ di Google. Saya sendiri pun pernah menulis tentang tips menulis purpose statement di blog ini. Memang tidak ada rumusan yang pasti karena semua kembali lagi ke metode masing-masing. 

For me, writing those essays were a journey to find yourself. Its all about to know yourself better. Knowing your strength, your weakness, your purpose in this life and be honest about it. Karena apa yang kamu tulis adalah tentang diri kamu dan nantinya apa yang kamu tulis itu lah yang akan kamu defense saat di tahap wawancara. Its all about your consistency and commitment.

Walaupun sudah banyak tips and trick dalam menulis essay di dunia maya, masih banyak yang mencari essay para awardee supaya tahu secara jelas apa sih yang membuat mereka terpilih. I was one of them in the beginning of my searching. And its not really a good influence karena akhirnya saya merasa alih-alih terinspirasi tetapi malah terpengaruh. Akhirnya saya berhenti membaca essay orang lain dan memulai menulis dengan gaya saya sendiri. Saat saya lulus menjadi awardee AAS, ada banyak yang mengontak saya untuk melihat essay yang saya tulis. Saat itu dipengaruhi euforia bahagia dalam berbagi, saya senang-senang saja men-share essay saya. Until at some point, I sent it to almost 50 people and I didn’t know 80% of them. I sent my personal journey to strangers 😦 I dont know why I felt sad and discussed the situation with friends. They said its normal to feel sad because I was sharing something very precious. Not just an essay that won a scholarship, but an essay that won the battle after several failures. 

I know how it feels to be clueless and lose hope after a failure. Thats why I really love to help people. unfortunenately I wont give my essay anymore to anyone, but I would really love to help by review their essay. Thats my decision. I know some people wont understamd it but this is all that I can help. You will know why later 🙂

A Year Ago


A year ago I took days off and traveled to Singapore and Malaysia. Feeling in total misery and hopeless because one of the Scholarship I applied in 2015 was failed. The main reason why I felt sad because I knew I didn’t give my best shot. I felt disappointed because I let myself failed. Drowning in a total sadness, I asked my friends not to mentioned about my scholarship progress and try to enjoy the journey. For me the trip itself was for my self-healing before I prepare another plan for my future scholarship.

Today, I just received my final score for IELTS test. Honestly, this is my third IELTS test this year. First was on April for my Australia Awards application. Second IELTS, few months after that, as a part of Joint Selection Team (JST) Interview of Australia Awards. And the third, and thanks God it’s the last for this year, 2 weeks ago.

The result is beyond my expectation but the most important thing, it’ll secure my place in the University. Alhamdulilah.

Looking back to the previous months, I finally can smile. After failed to attempt several scholarships and finally reach into this point, I just want to say thank you to myself. For the hard-work, for not giving up, for always be stubborn, and for the wonderful journey. 2016 was awesome!!! Let’s fight for 2017 & 2018 because it will be more challenging. ❤

I also would like to say million thanks to the people who helped me through this hardship. Family, friends, new friends and strangers. You know who you are. May God reply your kindness with thousand loves and bless. ❤ ❤

And now, it’s official, h-30 days before I leave this country. Bismillah.